winkgirl4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You can like the life you're living. What has gotten into me? So many entries in such a short amount of time. One would think that I have nothing better to do. Actually, I do- it's all just so... so, insignificant. I mean, taking Jordan back to Ada isn't insignificant it's just not that enjoyable, either. I get to drive that horrid drive. I get to drive past his house knowing I can't stop. I get to watch my daughter get out of the car for another week- after which I will see her for the short period of time it takes to load Justin into Raymond's car and watch them drive away, and then I get to drive past his house, again and make the increasingly boring trek back. And when I get back, what? I could visit my sisters- but I won't. Or if I do, it will be for a miniscule period of time. I could go to a movie with Mike- which I might just do. Then I"ll come home. Alone. There's Shannon. I could choose to believe that he means what he says and that he has, in fact, let go of Peter Pan. I could let my walls down. I could explore that strange new world that's around the corner and see if there's a place for me in it. Maybe I'll just stop fighting it. 12:49 p.m. - February 20, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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