winkgirl4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Notes from a fat girl OKAY! THAT'S IT! I'VE HAD ENOUGH! ...I MEAN IT !!! (Note the use of extra exclamation points.) I know I've been saying that I need to lose weight. I know I've been saying that I've been trying. But the truth is, I haven't. I've half-heartedly eaten small meals and snacked on fruit, but then I'll sneak in things like snickers bars or cookies or cans of soda pop. (Yeah, I called it soda pop, wanna make something of it?) And, sure, those in moderation won't ruin anyone but, damn it all, they are ruining me. I've never been this out of shape. I've never had so little energy. This isn't me. This isn't my body. Andrew is right, what I eat is okay but it could be better. I hardly ever exercise any more. I know that I created a schedule that limited my ability to be health-conscious but I don't have that schedule any more. And even when I did, I should have thought about the eating on the run and then the not running at all. I should have made better choices. Well, damn it, I"m making them right now. 10:41 p.m. - February 05, 2005 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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